44_calibur_love

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 05:11:12 GMT

this journal doesn't exist anymore. it isn't real. It's a version of me that went out of style a few months ago. it represents a different part of me. A part i've let go of. I'm not sure if it's a less worthy version, or a much better one? Or maybe i'm the same, but i'm just a hell of a lot more fortunate. Well, I've always been really fortunate. I'm happier now, or more aware of my happiness. My mom told me when I was ten years old "don't mistake regret for reason; visa versa." Those are words to live by-I'll swear by them.

I hope everyone; everywhere is ok. They don't have to be happy; I don't necessarily want them to be. But I think, even for just a few minutes, we should all be ok. And we'll take it from there.

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 05:28:21 GMT

this livejournal = dead!

add my new Livejournal(which i'll actually be updating often)

http://www.livejournal.com/users/jeremy_elijah/

everyone add. especially the enemies.

stole the car
drove towards mexico<3

adios!

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 15:18:15 GMT

seriously.

why do I have a livejournal?

WE ARE EVERYWHERE.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 14:31:24 GMT

there's this adorable purple thing holding your hair back.

If I told you outloud, you'd probably laugh, and call me silly.

So I figured I'd let you find out what I'm thinking by time I'm already gone.

But don't worry

I'll be back, darling.

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 12:56:22 GMT

I think it's important to think about the beginning, in order to fully appreciate the present.

I'm so fortunate.
<3

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 16:54:53 GMT

I'm wish I was some great painter-so I could paint a picture of the world that I wish we lived in together. The music thing isn't cutting it.

JE

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 21:10:44 GMT

i've got a terrible feeling about this.

"the sides of my head hurt".

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 08:18:23 GMT

I spent this weekend WORKING....I didn't write any nifty live journal entries, and update my myspace profile picture...or go to some party with really cool friends.

Then I found out today that some people...did all that stuff. And, that's nice and all-but I've a question for everyone in the entire world; especially them:

Where IS YOUR SPINE?

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 22:01:48 GMT

I don't know why don't know why don't know why I

can't get enough of your love babe.

(1974)

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 01:01:37 GMT

note to self: stop hurting the people you love.

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 01:02:48 GMT

Sometimes it takes having things taken away from us, to realize how little they mean. The people that matter, NEVER leave your side.

Mydarlingisamazing.
webelongtoeachother♥.

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 12:39:52 GMT

It's the 15 minutes we spend
just talking in the car
that make me feel
more alive than
I've ever felt.

you are amazing.

-Jeremy Elijah

(I can't wait for iceskatingincentralpark)

<3

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 02:10:34 GMT

The best days start with kissing you, and things like this.

You and I? Well we could keep 3:17 going for days.

I've got it good.

-Mr Gomez♥

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 03:19:09 GMT

The most discusting thing in the world is people who are tactless and rude.

Well, honestly-the most DISGUSTING*** thing in the entire world
is when people neglect to see eachother's point of view
and take offense
IMMEDIATELY.

Oh well, i'm not playing 7th grade games.
Sorry.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 12:50:10 GMT

Get ready for the greatest January, February, March, and April you've EVER had.

Iloveyou.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 16:04:29 GMT

you're beautiful
intelligent
warm
compassionate
responsable
mature
trustworthy
amazing.

(I bet you didn't think that would be my response to all of this).

but me? I'm the worst of the worst of the worst of the worst...and the worst part is, this whole entry is OH SO selfish.

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 13:36:58 GMT

A sushi picnic in central park.
Laying in the grass, staring up at the sky.
Funny train rides back.
Sitting and smiling in the ferry terminal.
Quiet car rides home(and mouthing the words "I love you").

if you say "How are you?"
and I say
AMAZING
you NOW know why.

We didn't take pictures.
Some things are only supposed
to seen ONCE
by TWO people.

ILOVEHOWYOUREYESCLOSE.
wheneveryoukissme♥

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 04:49:33 GMT

florida was hard
but now
we've been through it
all.

I was wrong before
when I said
I thought I'd learned
the most important lesson
of the evening.

The best lesson I learned:

Sometimes
the best things happen
when you
stick around.

♥
(happybirthdaytome)

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 04:18:34 GMT

It's officially my birthday!

September 6th, 1988<3

I suppose I might be a bit early...but I think it's time for a Summer Recap.

I feel like my summer began in the beginning of June...when I decided that I wouldn't be attending La Guardia Highschool any longer. I enrolled in New Dorp HS...and I already felt like I was starting over. The summer was of course filled with local shows(as it has been for 6 years now). The summer pretty much began like every other. However, unbeknownst to me; I'd not only be starting over-but seeing new beauty in what was already in front of me.

This summer I met Katya Gomez. If you can look at a girl in tears and recognize how beautiful she is, then you're bound to witness an overwhelmingly beautiful girl grow, and flourish in divinity.

We were immediately tested for our strength in the very beginning of our relationship. Katya was shipped off to Florida for (what was supposed to be) the remainder of the summer. I went with her to the airport. I honestly can say I've never felt so empty as I did when she walked down towards the plane. But something was different now..with cracked ribs, and an absent heart, I knew I'd still love her with an empty chest.

Something like 250-300 phone calls were made in those 7 trying weeks. Some were intoxicated; some were in tears, but EVERY PHONE CALL was in love...and that was enough to keep my head up.

The car ride to the airport was full of biting my nails, rehearsing my words when I saw her, and smiling intently.

After arriving at the airport, we walked to the gate...careen and montana stayed back-so I could have the first greeting. I got a call as I was waiting right by the doors from Katya saying the plane had just landed-and that she'd be down in a few minutes. I was nervous and excited as hell, and nearly jumped when I got a tap on the shoulder from montana, and he said..

"Um Jeremy. Yeah, we just figured out that she's coming down the way that's opposite from where we are now..."

I think I ran faster in my jeans than anyone else could've. I got there a minute in advance..flowers in hand, big smile on my face..

and then she came down.

I swear to god, I've never been as happy to see anyone, as I was to see her that night.

We basically decided to take the 2 or 3 remaining weeks until school-and do the best we could to make a summer out of them.

And they were filled with:

Vegan resturants, Vita, manhattan, ferry, trains, puerto rican venders, stores, OMG, jeans, dancing, the muddy cup, pictures, the parsonage, playing husband and wife, breakfast, Dr. Phil, pancakes, barbeque, the beach, family fatherings, getting caught, funny faces, beating me up, Neutral Milk Hotel, Vitamin Water, perfume, cuban jazz, sand castles.

and I wouldn't have had it any other way♥.

I'd rather be working for a paycheck, than waiting to win the lottery.

I get that, now.

thank you, and goodnight.

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 16:38:51 GMT

If I ever have so little to do in my life that I go out JUST to take pictures of myself...you all have the right to stab me.

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 12:04:19 GMT

We are VIDA'S FAVORITE couple.

Lo ciento ese, no mas carne o pollo para mi.

♥♥♥

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 15:21:34 GMT

I'm trying so hard
to do what's right.

Thank You♥

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 07:17:45 GMT

I spent today with the wife. We ate at Red Bamboo, and had dessert at VP2. Sometimes, she beats me up. And Sometimes, I call her Boo.

Resturants love us...'cause we make them look good.

As your ghost takes flight.

Bend all your notes for me.

<♥♥♥

I love updating my LJ at 3:17AM. ♥

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 01:20:17 GMT

With cracked ribs, and an absent heart-I'll still love you with an EMPTY CHEST.

♥

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 20:55:17 GMT

FORGET ALL OF THAT.

I LOVE YOU.

YOU LOVE ME.

AND

ACTION.